Embracing and releasing: The paradox of love

 

Maybe it’s because I wrote Judah’s birth story recently, and then have spent the last ten days on and off editing it (and editing photos), but lately I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means to offer my children to God.

And let me be honest.

I do’t want to.

I want them for myself.

I want to guard them and protect them and hold them as closely as possible.

I don’t want to give them away to anyone else.

And yet I do.

I want the world to know them, love them, reap the riches of all that their lives have to offer.

This paradox of parenthood—of love—baffles me: embracing and releasing. I am given tehse precious little ones to have and hold and raise and then…. I must also release them.

Even parents who don’t share my faith understand this. We know that our children are not actually given to us, they’re entrusted to us… for a time. We are to raise them and parent them well and teach them how to love and be loved…

And then let them go.

What a seemingly impossible task. What a noble task.

One that I hope to do well.

I want my kids one day to be able to turn to me and say thanks.

Thanks, mom, for releasing us to be all that we are.

STOP.

Q for you: How are you deliberate about “letting go” of the people who are most dear to you?

Love,
A

Click Clink Five is a blog by Adriel Booker. | Five minutes a day, unedited. | 2012 All rights reserved. | Adriel also writes on motherhood and parenting at The Mommyhood Memos.

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About Adriel Booker

Writer, speaker, advocate, and non-prof worker. Happily married city-lover, mama, and emoji enthusiast in Sydney, Australia. Author of Grace Like Scarlett (Baker Books, 2018). View all posts by Adriel Booker

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