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Clarification

…and by “the next several weeks” what I apparently meant was the next several months.

Do you know how hard it is to reform a habit once it’s lost?

And do you know how easy it is to drop a habit?

I faithfully wrote on this little blog for five minutes a day for more than half a year… and yet it took next to nothing for me to kick it to the curb.

Why isn’t kicking a bad habit as easy as kicking a good one?

Seriously. This is a real question.

Why???

There was a good chunk of time that life got a little crazy, but now it’s back to normal – the normal crazy.

So I should be back right?

I suppose it’s just a matter of decision.

Ok then, I’m deciding to be back.

Can’t even describe how I’ve missed this little place, but even more – how I’ve missed my discipline of daily free writing. It’s good for my soul.

STOP.

 

Q for you: What do you think? Why is it so easy to break good habits, but so hard to break bad ones?

 

Love,
A

 


On getting derailed from a healthy habit

It’s amazing how easy it is to get out of a well-established habit. (Kind of depressing, actually.)

There was a point in my life where I got up at 5:00am every day. By choice.

This now seems like my worst nightmare.

But at the time I lived with twelve girls and I reeeeaaalllly liked to get my shower in first and have some quiet space to myself. (What’s a half-introverted girl to do?!)

When I started this blog it was for many reasons. One of them – the main one – was to help establish a healthy discipline of regular, free writing.

I happily did this every day for six months. (It was very, very rare for me to miss a day.)

Not only did I do it every day, I LOVED IT.

Then the force that was our July hit and I just couldn’t do it. (Fine, there’s grace for that.)

But now life is back to normal and I’m finding it sooo hard to get back to the every day.

I want to – I love and enjoy writing! I have time to – who can’t find 5 minutes in “normal” circumstances?!

So….. what’s the problem here?

I’m not sure.

But it’s a little frightening for me to see just how quickly and easily a well-cultivated habit (discipline) can be derailed if we’re not careful.

What’s a goal-oriented girl to do?

Well, keep on trying to get back on track I suppose.

 

Q for you: Surely you’ve had a good habit fall to the wayside at one point or another. What helped you to get back on track?

 

Love,
A

 

Click Clink Five | Five minutes a day, unedited.


Six months. Almost.

I thought it time for a little check-in related to this blog.

Hard to imagine that it’s been almost half a year since I started this crazy five-minute a day project.

I’m so glad I did. Some of my favorite writing has come in the moments before bed in this little space.

Until recently, I had not missed a day. That alone makes me happy – shows that I’m growing in discipline.

This month has been harder. I think I’ve missed four days now. Maybe five.

But instead of getting cranky about it, I’ve decided to be gracious to myself.

I’m in the throes of life with littles right now and to say I’m tired is an understatement.

Ultimately, I’m proud that I’ve made it this far.

I’ve done more writing on a consistent basis here than I ever could have in another format.

It’s been liberating to not have a focus or a niche.

And it’s been liberating to not worry about editing.

Mostly, it’s just been liberating to write. (Cuz I am a writer, you know.)

Six more months to go with this project.

Can I do it?

I think yes.

STOP.

 

Q for you: What have you accomplished lately that’s been hard but makes you proud?

 

Love,
A

 

Click Clink Five | Five minutes a day, unedited


I’m loving this tiny little space

Can I just say how much I’m loving this little blog of mine?

My five minute, unedited, tiny little space for a few words a day.

Yes, it’s sometimes frustrating to “STOP”. I always, always want to go back and re-write and add in words and sentances and correct little mistakes. But, oh thre’s a but…

But I LOVE that I’m actually writing every day.

My life is so hectic right now that if I only ever wrote when I had time to write… it would be almost never. And yet five minutes a day? I can make that happen. (And somedays it actually feels like a stretch – ha!)

So even though i still want and need and crave for time to sit and write and edit and write putting more effort and thought into the creative process, the fact taht I’ve got this little blog means that I’m still writing in teh meantime. And I love that.

Sure, it’s beating out the perfectonist in me. (I still have a long way to go.) Sure, it’s teaching me to not waffle on and on and be more succinct. (Well, hopefully.) Sure, it’s forcing me to sit down and do something every day as a discipline and a creative outlet.

It’s all those things, those wonderful things.

But mostly? It’s becoming this precious place where I just clink out what’s on my mind. Sometimes deep and sometimes not. Incredibly theraputic. And such an amazign way to store up the little slices of life that might get buried or lost otherwise.

Funny taht some of my favorite writing has been here – banged out in just a few mnutes.

Of course it needs polishing and honing… but still, these little sessions have produced some treasures… in my opinion at least.

i think I may have stumbled into somethng that really is changing my life for the better. And I love it.

STOP.

 

Q for you: Are you actively seeking a way that you can be creative in the midst of your busy schedule and responsibilities?

 

Love,
A

 

Click Clink Five | Five minutes a day, unedited.
Adriel also writes (using spell-check!) on motherhood and parenting at The Mommyhood Memos


Writing every day

I’m kinda amazed that I’ve been writing now every day for two adn a half months.

(Good job, Adriel.)

I definitely think some posts have been better than others. (Some have been downright… bad.) But I’m finding that overall I’m so glad I made this goal.

i think it’s forcing me to think about what I really want to say. Forcing me to try and be more succinct. Forcing me to let go of perfection (the biggest thing, I think). And forcing me to… just write.

And “just writing” is helping me to stay more in the flow of writing.

I read Madeline L’Engle’s book “Walking on Water” many years ago (a book on faith adn art) and it really impacted me. I’ll never forget her advice that if you want to grow as an artist, you must “do” your art every day.

It’s taken me many years to put that into practice.

But this little blog is helping.

it’s probably not overly profound to anyone who reads… but it’s verging on profound for me.

I think for the first time I actually feel like I’m growing as a writer.

Kind of a hard one to quantify or gage, but I feel it.

Maybe next year I will have to do something daily to grow in my photography. (Though that does feel daunting….. hmmm… probably won’t. but maybe?)

STOP.

 

Q for you: Do you have something that you’ve committed to do every day, just for the sake of getting better?

 

Love,
A

 

Click Clink Five | Five minutes a day, unedited.
Adriel also writes (using spell check) on motherhood and parenting on The Mommyhood Memos.


Tiny little blog fail

When I wait until the end of the day to write I end up serving up leftovers.

*Head bowed in embarrassment.*

I had several “aha!” moments today as I went about my day – things that I couldn’t wait to sit down and write about.

And now it’s bedtime and I realize I’ve not done it.

Fail. little tiny blog fail.

I suppose it’s no big deal since my readership is pretty tiny.

But you, tiny readership, are important to me.

You deserve more than my leftovers.

You take your time to read what I might say…

And so you deserve better.

“God’s mercies are new every morning.” I’m so glad for this truth.

Tomorrow I will wake up and begin afresh and no doubt I’ll have some riveting story to tell you.

Or maybe I won’t. (Have a riventing story, that is.)

But I will promise you to not bring left-overs to teh table.

STOP.

 

Q for you: What are you glad for a fresh start tomorrow for?

 

Love,
A

 

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Click Clink Five: five minutes a day, unedited.

 


Anger management issues?

I’m not sure if it was just a post birthday crash or the Monday morning blues or just a case of waking up on teh wrong side of the bed… but this morning levi was a crazy man.

he spent most of the morning, not just in tears, but fake crying/sort-of screaming and throwing tings.

Melt down city.

Several tiems I was able to change teh situation and calm him down, but then something else would set him off again.

(Wow, just as I’m writing this I’m realizing that this is his normal teething behavior. Oooops. Didn’t even think to check his teeth. I think it’s probably time to put his amber teething necklace back on.)

[Hello tangent.]

As I watched him this morning – throwing trains, hitting the chair because he tripped on it, etc – I saw so much of myself in him.

I saw my own weaknesses, my own temper, my own raging emotions.

The only difference is I’ve learned how to control them a little better.

There’s many times where I felt like throwing my computer agains the wall, or ramming into a car that cut me off, or losing it at a customer service rep on the phone. (Or throwing my kids out the window.)

The ony thing that holds me back is my own developing maturity and self-control.

Same emotions, different response.

It helps me not to get angry at him when he’s losing it – remembering that he’s feeling the same way I often do, but just doesn’t yet have all the tools to handle or help solve the situation.

So I do my best to difuse, distract, and disciple him in how to respond when things get messed up or broken or hurt.

I’m leanring to keep my cool with him, just as he’s leanring to keep his cool with life.

And i think… maybe my kid odesn’t have anger management issues after all. Maybe he’s just having one of “those” days and needs a little more help to navigate through.

After all, I can relate to that too.

STOP.

 

Q for you: I’m not the only one who wants to throw my computer at the wall sometimes, right? Right? What helps you keep your cool when the pressure’s on?

 

Love,
A

 

Click Clink Five is a blog by Adriel Booker. | Five minutes a day, unedited. | 2012 All rights reserved. | Adriel also writes on parenting and motherhood at The Mommyhood Memos.

 


Probably not worth the two minutes it would take to read this

I certainly didn’t think this through very well.

When I decided to start this blog it was all about the disicpline of writing for five minutes each day coupled with the disicpline of leaving it “as is” – unedited. I knew that would be hard. (It is.)

But what i wasn’t thinking about was the fact that though five minutes might be “easy” and “doable”, life doesn’t structure itself neatly around my little ideas.

All day I have been feeling nausious. (For the life of me I don’t know how to spell that one – help me spell check!) By the time tonight rolled around all I wanted was to lay in bed until I either puked or… um, released all the uneasiness in the toilet. (TMI? I think, yes.)

When my husband got home from work I took a three-hour nap. I’m still not feeling better, but I was hungry so I got up. (How I can feel both sick and hungry at the same time is beyond me, but wahtever.)

So I got up, ate some crackers adn then spent the next 20 minutes in teh bathroom. (gross.)

Now I am here.

Why? Becuase I’m stubborn? (I don’t want to let this thing beat me.) Because I’m proud? (I said I would so I neeeed to…) Or because I;m practicing discipline? (The first two hold more water to be honest.)

But what will I do when I travel overseas and across time zones? What will I do when I’m in Papua New GUinea for three weeks later this year where my internet access will be limited? What will I do if I get sick?

Tehse are all questions I did not think about when impulsively starting this project. (Duh.)

So here I am, a crap post “becuase I should”, but it counts for something, right?

Doesn’t the fact taht I’ve “shown up” count for something?

STOP.

 

Q for you: How often do you do things you “should”… and then wonder later if you really should?

 

Love,
A

 

Click Clink Five is a blog by Adriel Booker. | Five minutes a day, unedited. | 2012 All rights reserved. | Adriel also writes on parenting and motherhood at The Mommyhood Memos.


I don’t feeeeeeel like it

Day twelve of this little project and I don’t want to write today.

I’m tired. I want to veg. I want to sit on the couch and let the tv carry me away.

It’s pretty rare that I don’t feel like writing.

I almost always feel like writing. It’s having the time that’s the issue.

So it’s weird to not feel it.

But that’s really when discipline is put to the test isn’t it?

Not when it’s easy, but when it’s hard. When we don’t want to. When there are other things vying for our attention. When there are other things to do.

When we don’t feeeeeel like it.

That’s when discipline really needs to kick in.

So I decided to embrace it, sit down, give myself five minutes, and write.

And now that I’m doing it, it feels good. Surprise.

I’m still tired. My eyes are heavy and my fingers moving slower.

But it feels good to conqure my own laziness. It feels good to not let my feelings rule.

As hard as discipline sometimes feels… it also feels good.

Funny, that.

Discipline feels good.

 

STOP.

 

Q for you: Do you have a love-hate relationship with discipline the way I do?

 

Love,
A

Click Clink Five is a blog by Adriel Booker. | Five minutes a day, unedited. | 2012 All rights reserved. | Adriel also writes on parenting and motherhood at The Mommyhood Memos.


A new blog for a new day

click, clink, stream, stop.

I laid in bed awake last night – New Years Day – when I should have been sleeping. I was thinking about the year ahead and some of my goals and things I’d like to accomplish.

So many.

But one of the main things I really want to do is work on my discipline. There are lots of areas where I need to pull in the reigns: Meal planning, reading, writing, prayer, building in more couple time, getting my body moving.

But there is so little time. So few hours in the day.

I need things that will take me minutes, not hours.

To be a writer (or to get good at writing) I know that I need to write every day. And trust me, I’d like to. (Hello, I enjoy it.) But with a newborn (who’s maybe not even a newborn any more) and a VERY busy toddler, I can hardly find the time.

Because, you know, when they have their one time a day where their naps overlap… I want to be napping to. (My sanity.)

So I thought maybe I could start a new habit, a new blog. As time allows I’ll still wrote for the Memos, and for the Bookers in Missions, and the private ones for my kids, but this one will be different. More raw, more spontaneous. But spontaneous and disciplined both.

One where I set my timer and write for five minutes a day. FIVE ONLY. Every day. Stream-of-conscious. No editing. No time to to be “prefect”. No time for “just right”. No time to plan.

Just sit down and write. Nothing fancy. Just some words on paper.

Virtual paper.

Oh, and photos are allow. But only phone photos. Cuz I want to take more photos too… but not spend a thousand hours editing them. And i finally have a phone that takes phoyos. And i kinda love it.

So here I am, just a few seconds left. My first entry. Day one.

5 minutes. No more, no less. No editing. No subject off limits. No holds barred.

One year. Can I do it?? Can I follow through?? Can I be disicplined enough to stick to the “rules”?

Or will I change them later? who knows. I can. it’s my project. And i’ve definitely not thought this one through.

Just jumping on board. Super spontaneous. Hello, maybe stupid? Maybe brilliant?

We’ll see.

It might be boring. it might be random. It might be awesome. So freaking awesome.

i don’t know.

But I do know:

There will be spelling errors. There will be things that don’t flow. There will be words misused and missing and mangled. There will be bad punctuation. (Worse than I already have.) There will be…

TIME.

I went back and totally cheated. Added in a few phrases. Took two extra minutes. Day one – Fail.

Try again tomorrow. I’ll do better.

I can only get better. Right?

T I M E.

I probably shuld have googled my blog name before I chose it, huh? Yup, prolly should’ve.

What’s done is done. fast.

T I M E!  T I M E!!!

.S T O P.