At 10:00pm tonight I had finally finished with unpacking the groceries, putting away the clean dishes, loading the dirty ones in the dishwasher, finishing the laundry, and giving a quick wipe of the kitchen sink and counters.
That’s a fifteen hour work day right there. And that’s not including checking or responding to emails or anything ‘admin’ related. (Or personal stuff – like writing here on my wee blog!)
I’m not saying that to complain (though sometimes I desperately want to complain about it).
I’m saying it because I used to think it really sucked when I had to work late – until 6:00 or 7:00pm.
And now here I am at 10:00pm and I’m just now sitting down alone for the first time today. (When your job is like mine you work through your “lunch break” on a daily basis.)
The thought of sitting down in the evenings and zoning out in front of the telly is very appealing, but even that seems hard to come by these days.
I’m not sure why it’s taken me almost 2.5 years, but I think I’m just now figuring out how different my life really is since having kids.
I’m just now figuring out that I actually can’t compare it to “life before” when it comes to work hours and down time or else I just get depressed!
I wouldn’t trade my job if I could. Really.
But it is hard, and tiring, and consuming.
I have days (like yesterday) when I’m ready to call up a day care centre and see how much it costs to send the kids there. Seriously.
While at the same time I know what an absolute privilege it is that I’m able to stay home with my kids. (Something not every mom who desires to is able to do.)
I’m blessed. Tired, and blessed.
(And for the record, I know that everyone has days they want to quit their job. Being a SAHM isn’t any different – I realize that.)
Tomorrow morning I will get up and start all over again.
Q for you: Are you a SAHM? If so, are you deliberate about “clocking off” at a certain hour? Or do you find yourself pulling lots of late nights like me? How do you build in margin??
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